Obviously I need somebody to tell me what to do. I have found myself a coach who I can send my to-do-list to, so she can tell me what  to work on in the coming week. I don't know why I am not able to read the list to myself, but I have tried that for 57 years and it didn't (quite) work. After writing this I can cross off one checkbox on my list, which is: keep drawing, and write a little bit to each drawing. Done! Thank you, fairy. Oh, and the next point on my list is: Enjoy and celebrate!